time is a funny thing isnt it?

i just realised how absured things can look if u just look back a lil. i am 23 years old so its not really looking back 30 years but everything is all turned upsidedown. this funny thought hit me when i whas thinking about my hero. we have been in our lifes all our lifes but not all that direkt. our moms hade common friends at first so i new him or more exakt i new OF him and i didnt think much about him then. he was a quiet lil boy and never mabe much fuss. my first memory off him is of course times with my kinder garden or with my mom and her friends and no one shuved us together or anything so i dont have strang memorys of him that early. in early middle school i remember seing him sitting down and it was a really sad sight. he was so abwiusly depresed and lonley. its a really clear memory off mine and it makes me so sad when i saw him and didnt do anything couse now i cant think off him sad without wanting to help. in later middle school we shared a coridore but i never talked to him or even knowtised him. hard to imagen today. in high school our moms became friends and hung out so we kinda did the same and i got to know him for real. we played games and were comfortible in our company. after a while i found my ex and hanging out with my hero got okay but a lil weird. i use to think he was in love with me and that i might just give him a chans but time never came. we drifted apart and i didnt see him for years when time was hard for me and my ex that i was together with at the moment and one thing lent later to an other and here we r today.