i just realised how absured things can look if u just look back a lil. i am 23 years old so its not really looking back 30 years but everything is all turned upsidedown. this funny thought hit me when i whas thinking about my hero. we have been in our lifes all our lifes but not all that direkt. our moms hade common friends at first so i new him or more exakt i new OF him and i didnt think much about him then. he was a quiet lil boy and never mabe much fuss. my first memory off him is of course…
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Added by Jini on August 12, 2008 at 3:00am —
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i love u! how can u not see that? how can u go on without feeling anything back? how can u cudle with me all night into the next day witout sleep and not say what i wanna hear? how can u touch me with the warmest passion and then sleep so far from me? why do i feel ur love one secund and then the next its gone? how can u live without my love... or is that the reson u call me back to u? why do u use me? why dont u see that we r made to be (maybe not forever but for a time)? why dont u see that i…
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Added by Jini on August 11, 2008 at 5:34am —
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hehehe i just reed my ex´s new g/f blog... without consent of cours hehehee but it was so funny!
first off all: he stoped contacting me and i know its all becouse off her but i am not chocked or upsett... i am happy for him.
second off all: she is the most gelus person i have ever heard off... she cant live with him in "his" apartment cus i just to live there! friends off mine cant even talk about me! and i have to remind u at this point that we where together 7 years! not 2 or 3 but 7 f***ing…
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Added by Jini on August 6, 2008 at 11:49pm —
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u know me, i know u but this is never really easy with us is it? cant u just waik up and see what u could be for u? lett me in and lett me make ur life easyer!
i spent the day with u and ur mom and u where an ass all day! ur never really nice to her and if u ever took the time to get to know her u would see that she is to week. i care i know that, both about me and ur mom but u cant lett it out right can u? i could help u u know. how well do i know u all? i love u all, i am a close friend to u…
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Added by Jini on July 24, 2008 at 2:01am —
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i am feeling so empty latly. everyday i miss someone by my side. being single isnt me and its slowly eating me up from the inside. i wish someone would see me and see the one, u know... well i know it doesnt happen that way but i am so tired off this feeling. i wanna bee so close to someone and there is no one there... how much more can i really say about it except that its enoying the hell out off me. love to all and more to me ;)
jini out.
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Added by Jini on July 22, 2008 at 4:00pm —
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i dint know if i told some off u guys but i was use as a child. a guy 5 years older made me touch,suck and explore him while he did the same. i think about it every day but i am okay with it today and i dont wanna whollo in the past but sometimes i have to define if... when i tell new ppl its fucking hell and seing ppls reakt in one way is torture... the worst is the protected ppl, the ppl that never had a bobo without mumy dearest kiss it away... they r like time bombs... i never know whats gon…
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Added by Jini on July 21, 2008 at 6:16am —
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so, goog ppl of this neet website, time goes by and i give u nothing, very sorry. as u might expect time hasent been standing still exactly so there is alot to say. ill do whats best for me and u r gonna have to exuse me if i am skipping things that might make this harder to get but ur free to ask u know :D
so... i fell sor that guy i was having a fb relationship with and a cople off "friends off mine went behind my back to tell him everything and i am not even sure what they said. i dont have…
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Added by Jini on July 17, 2008 at 1:08am —
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yepp it about the guy i like... love... none of u guys have sent me anything about him... u cant tell me anything about what i should do but i guess its just one of those time when i have to handle it my way.
at the moment i dant have a plan and i dont know what i want but one step is clear... i have to stop sleeping with others. i cant run around anymore cuz it makes me unfocused and i only end up hurt. i dont what him to run around with others eather but what can i do? i never talked to him a…
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Added by Jini on May 26, 2008 at 1:26am —
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this friday was almost magical and i should have realised that it would end. i was down at my local with friend that tryed everything to keep me there. when time was almost up my old nabures called and said they where comming so we mett up with them and whent to crarion. at clarien a friend of mine told me she was pregnant and i was really happy for her sake. after that we whent over to her place with an other friend and talked and banded like new friends need. i had some contakt with my hero an…
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Added by Jini on May 25, 2008 at 12:54pm —
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last night was wonderful. i went over to my hero and it was the nicest thing ever, he was so sweet and i cant barly think about it today without crying becous i am to overwelmed. my life use to be more bad than good but now, even tho the bad are kinda bad, the good things over shines the bad alot. i cant tell u about the bad from yesterday without it becoming this nonsens thing. i didnt think about it to much but we hade unprotected sex and when he came he kinda ask a lil puzzled "did get any?"…
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Added by Jini on May 22, 2008 at 12:56pm —
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i had a fight with my ex yesterday about his apartment that i spent money on so we could move in there. about 4 years ago me and my ex, who was my boyfriend or fiance at the time, moved into an apartment in skarpnäck in sweden. to be able to get a lone for it he put 20 k i put 24 k and we borowed 20 k from his grandparents. now when we r seperated he feels that he owns my part to and so we got in an argument and he said he never wants to see me when its over. ofcours i dont wanna leavehim behind…
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Added by Jini on May 19, 2008 at 12:39pm —
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i had a bad day but then i saw u. i saw u for just a short while but u made my day feel better. better than i am around anyone else. around all of them outside i feel lost and comfused. this comfusien never seem to stop but when u r near i feel calm. i am calm when u r there but when u leave i feel lost again and i cant stop the thoughts. i my head thoughts of u and how i am going to see u next time fight in my head. they fight to be the next thought of u that i think and obses over cuz i cant l…
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Added by Jini on May 19, 2008 at 12:14am —
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so sens my old blogs r kinda gone and sens i never had ne one really reading my blog before i think its time to deticate a page to my hero... its what i call him, the guy i have some kinda crush on.
there is this guy in my life who always make me feel so good. he never jude me or make me sad. he gives me meaning without having ne himself. he is my friend, not my boyfriend, not the love of my life but he makes me calm and feel super good. when he calls or txt me i get buterflyes in my stomace, w…
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Added by Jini on May 13, 2008 at 10:10pm —
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so i dont have to tell u faithful readers my life has been crazy latly but now i feel its time to do some cleaning up. i have to think about what kind of ppl i have around me, clean up my own act and become a better person.
i bet u guys out there is eager to know if there is a baby in my future... well it is going to be but not now... i am not pregnant :D i dont have to decide between killing my own kid and making a misstake. and now i know better :D thanks to u who followed my freak out.
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Added by Jini on May 12, 2008 at 9:43pm —
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jo today has been alot about kids. i went to this school to work as a temp. the kids where grate but i am not so use to the whole thing so when 30 kids where screaming i got a lil tired but thats all. i am going out to this preeschool tomorrow and i am going to work with kids from 1 - 3 year olds. this is going to be hard with my lil problem right now but ill handle it... i am figuring that it will eather be nice and i will want the lil bugger if it is growing in there or i will get so sick off…
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Added by Jini on May 5, 2008 at 8:03pm —
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i am going to begin my story by telling u guys that it was a long weekend this week, it started after work on wensday. i had alot of plans for this weekend becuse a friend of mine from helsingborg was coming up to have some fun with me and my friends. we had 3 drinking days planed, me, my helsingborg friend and a girl friend of mine. i wasnt that into it tho... so the first one ended in a fight between my other friend and a friend of hers over something someone had said and it all feelt lite pre…
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Added by Jini on May 4, 2008 at 2:14pm —
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so... i am in my bed, watching medium when it strikes me... have u guys seen "spin city"? the guy who played mike... a really famus guy only i am really bad at names so i cant tell u it... he stoped making films and tv series cuz he is a victum of a decies named parkingson... so now u r all wondering thy i am thinking of this... in the end he was really shaky and tryed to deskise it but as i was watching medium i knowtised that the guy playing her huspand was really shaky... i dont wanna piont f…
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Added by Jini on May 1, 2008 at 12:07pm —
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dear ppl i think it time to write to u before i turn in to the crazy person i have goten use to being when i am in these kinds of spots... i havent hade time to think of symtoms yet at work but now i am feeling then loude and clear... i just ate and i am nosiuse as a... pregnant chick... but its to soon ne way to bee feeling it this much so i know its just my mind playing tricks on me... but knowing is not the cure... just so u ppl know so dont think it dose if ur ever finding ur self in a simul…
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Added by Jini on April 29, 2008 at 9:27pm —
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hey all u nice ppl out there. i was really glad to see that u saw my new blog here and comented... thats kinda what i need in my comfused life... so its time to bite a soure aple... well just something my mom say.
so lett me tell u about this weekend... if ur a prude ur best away from this next text.
it started good, i was at my sisters place and had a lil to drink with my sister, my half sister that just moved back home from spain and my mom. they where all in a good mood and we had a perfect…
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Added by Jini on April 27, 2008 at 10:35pm —
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so here i am. i am always glad to start a new blog... gives me an othe chans to get it right :P i thought i might start of with telling u guys what i like with my secret blog.. okay here we go :D :
* i like that i can get things off my chest here
* i like it that i can be totaly open in a way that i cant be ne where
* i would very much like it if u comented
when i write a blgg its mostly to someone or a reflection i cant share with ppl around me. sometimes i writ drunk cuz i get a weird thought…
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Added by Jini on April 26, 2008 at 6:43pm —
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